Relapse...

I relapsed today. 

I was doing so well. 

I teared up a little Monday, 

and not at all yesterday

And then this afternoon came along. 

(this picture cracked me up, I don't know why lol)

I was just sitting in bed thinking. 

Remembering last Summer

and how fun it was

I read all day,

and then hung out with Jonathan

and/or Megan at night. 

Even during Summer school 

it was awesome. 

Mornings with my best friend

Afternoons working out

showering just in time 

to hang out with Jonathan

I just got mad at myself

I took that time for granted

I miss having that gift, 

seeing him every day

being able to talk to him on the phone

every day with out fail

even just texting though out the day

I took all of it for granted

I just got so mad at myself 

for not being more thankful 

and then the water started

and wouldn't stop. 

finally, I decided I'd just write

it's amazing how much better 

writing these makes me feel.

I hope you guys don't get sic of me and my emo ways.

(The new look I'm thinkin of goin for

hahahaha!)