22 isn't THAT big of a number... right?

I've been struggling a lot more than I thought I would

It's been one week, but it feels like 3

It doesn't help that Jonathan is moving

All I want is to be there to help him. 

I didn't realize how much harder it would be

See, normally I have the distraction of school or work

The first time he left, I had school the next day. 

The second time I had school after a few days. 

The third time I had work just 6 hours later

This time, no school, no work, nothing.

So I sit at home all day, bored, missing him.
While writing this I decided that I am going to bake tomorrow, 

or cook. I just want to create something new. 

And do something that will distract me.

I just want to get into my numb place 

and stay there for the next 22 weeks till I see him again.